Understand歌词

作词 : BoyWithUke
作曲 : BoyWithUke
Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't wanted to be your man back then
And you knew I fell for you
But you just broke my heart in two
I was sad mad and broken on my bed
Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head
I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med
When I was met with a prescription
Of a bullet made of lead
And when I woke up in an hour
In a pool of my own sweat
I said I swear to God
I'll never even try to sleep again
So instead I took my pen
And started writing evidence
And when I started making sense
I found that I had reached the end
Oh I'm upset I have no friends
You wanna bet you're just pretend
You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing
You're not shit
I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways
I swear I did
I said I'd talk to people
'Bout the problematic life I lived
They were my neighbors razor blades
And different flavored pills I hit
Therefore I'm at surely my last straw
I'm so gassed stuck in the past I said that
Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't wanted to be your man back then
And so far I never held you with my arms
So it's hard to be the one you aren't with
Instead filled with anxiety always was a part of me
Guess I'm not cut out to be
Somebody 'cause it's not me
I'm not used to all the talking
Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing
Used to cope with all my problems using notes
And lots of rhyming
Used to hope for better days
Whenever nights would have me crying
I'm not lying when I say that
I would rather die than go back
To the times I would try
And be the guy the people know
As always fighting with
The demons hiding far behind my eyelids
On an island full of violence in my head
I had two pilots
Oh the sun don't shine and skies turn grey
I feel it coursing through my veins
I've said before I'm not okay
But you don't listen anyway
You know I tried you turned away
You straight-up lied right to my face
You f**ked my life ruined my day
But you don't know so I'll say
Nothing can fill this silence no one can love like I did
Nobody cares you lied it's not fair you still deny it
So I'll say
Nothing can fill this silence no one can love like I did
Nobody cares you lied it's not fair you still deny it
So I'll say
Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't wanted to be your man back then
And too bad I know I can't wake up
Because I lost my way
And you don't give a f**k about me
This could be a dream
I can't see the things that you see so please oh
Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't wanted to be your man back then
And you had known and played along
You were my home I wrote you songs
Now you're dead to me effectively
Removed yourself outside my dreams