[00:00.00] 作词 : BoyWithUke
[00:00.17] 作曲 : BoyWithUke
[00:00.35]Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand
[00:04.56]But I can't wanted to be your man back then
[00:09.34]And you knew I fell for you
[00:11.51]But you just broke my heart in two
[00:13.84]I was sad mad and broken on my bed
[00:16.57]Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head
[00:18.72]I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med
[00:20.95]When I was met with a prescription
[00:22.12]Of a bullet made of lead
[00:23.32]And when I woke up in an hour
[00:24.51]In a pool of my own sweat
[00:25.68]I said I swear to God
[00:26.72]I'll never even try to sleep again
[00:27.99]So instead I took my pen
[00:28.99]And started writing evidence
[00:30.16]And when I started making sense
[00:31.27]I found that I had reached the end
[00:32.58]Oh I'm upset I have no friends
[00:33.72]You wanna bet you're just pretend
[00:34.80]You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing
[00:36.63]You're not shit
[00:37.41]I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways
[00:40.29]I swear I did
[00:41.42]I said I'd talk to people
[00:43.23]'Bout the problematic life I lived
[00:46.06]They were my neighbors razor blades
[00:48.37]And different flavored pills I hit
[00:50.70]Therefore I'm at surely my last straw
[00:53.20]I'm so gassed stuck in the past I said that
[00:56.27]Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand
[01:00.26]But I can't wanted to be your man back then
[01:05.29]And so far I never held you with my arms
[01:07.97]So it's hard to be the one you aren't with
[01:10.46]Instead filled with anxiety always was a part of me
[01:13.81]Guess I'm not cut out to be
[01:14.91]Somebody 'cause it's not me
[01:15.95]I'm not used to all the talking
[01:17.03]Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing
[01:18.94]Used to cope with all my problems using notes
[01:20.79]And lots of rhyming
[01:21.61]Used to hope for better days
[01:22.63]Whenever nights would have me crying
[01:24.03]I'm not lying when I say that
[01:25.18]I would rather die than go back
[01:26.51]To the times I would try
[01:27.50]And be the guy the people know
[01:28.85]As always fighting with
[01:29.69]The demons hiding far behind my eyelids
[01:31.08]On an island full of violence in my head
[01:32.55]I had two pilots
[01:33.57]Oh the sun don't shine and skies turn grey
[01:36.45]I feel it coursing through my veins
[01:38.66]I've said before I'm not okay
[01:41.02]But you don't listen anyway
[01:43.08]You know I tried you turned away
[01:45.47]You straight-up lied right to my face
[01:47.76]You f**ked my life ruined my day
[01:50.29]But you don't know so I'll say
[01:52.54]Nothing can fill this silence no one can love like I did
[01:57.10]Nobody cares you lied it's not fair you still deny it
[02:00.93]So I'll say
[02:01.64]Nothing can fill this silence no one can love like I did
[02:06.37]Nobody cares you lied it's not fair you still deny it
[02:10.18]So I'll say
[02:11.03]Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand
[02:14.98]But I can't wanted to be your man back then
[02:19.82]And too bad I know I can't wake up
[02:22.09]Because I lost my way
[02:23.10]And you don't give a f**k about me
[02:25.41]This could be a dream
[02:26.72]I can't see the things that you see so please oh
[02:29.50]Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand
[02:33.55]But I can't wanted to be your man back then
[02:38.43]And you had known and played along
[02:40.72]You were my home I wrote you songs
[02:42.95]Now you're dead to me effectively
[02:45.46]Removed yourself outside my dreams