[00:00.000] 作曲 : Charlton Howard/Elisha Herbert/Billy Walsh/TJ Mizell/Austin Howard
[00:00.489] Uhm, the first time I was heartbroken
[00:04.221] I was fifteen
[00:07.743] And he was two years older than me
[00:10.041] And I thought he was the coolest guy in the world because he could drive
[00:13.991] He absolutely ripped my heart out
[00:17.175] And still, to this day, I don't know if it was love
[00:22.914] And I don't know if I've ever felt love
[00:27.922] And I don't think I will know until the day I die
[00:31.986] The first time I ever lost somebody super close to me was my Aunt Patty
[00:36.392] She got cancer when I was really young
[00:39.102] She fought hard, but ended up passing
[00:41.472] And I remember in her final days, she was really skinny and sickly
[00:45.283] Talkin' 'bout how precious life was and how she didn't wanna go
[00:49.048] Really put everything in perspective for me
[00:51.622] She was younger than I am now
[00:55.042] Y'know, I remember the first time I got the news that I was gonna be a dad
[00:59.777] While I was actually landing in Dallas for my great-grandmother's funeral
[01:04.942] I remember landing and getting a text from Koa's mom
[01:09.111] Just being like, "Hey, call me immediately, like, I have to talk to you"
[01:13.777] And, uh, she was like, "I'm pregnant, we're, we're gonna have a kid"
[01:17.170] And the mixed emotions, I can't even begin to explain, like
[01:21.681] Just losing one of the strongest members of our family
[01:25.090] And, also, gaining a member of the family
[01:28.763] I remember the first time I had to make a big move was when I was movin' from Sydney to L.A.
[01:34.089] With my older brother LAROI
[01:36.341] And I remember, at first, I was just like, really, really angry with LAROI and mom
[01:41.865] Just like, losing it, 'cause I was like, moving away from all of my friends, cousins, like all my relatives, and everything
[01:49.030] Like, it hurt, you know
[01:51.941] But I realized that if they didn't move me out, I probably would've been a completely different person
[01:58.745] And like I woulda been raised completely differently and whatever
[02:01.966] But yeah, that was my first time