[00:00.000] 作词 : Jeff Hazin/Rodaidh McDonald/Ash Gutierrez [00:01.000] 作曲 : Jeff Hazin/Rodaidh McDonald/Ash Gutierrez [00:13.859] The moment I turn twenty-three [00:16.107] I'll grab the gun my father gave to me [00:19.955] On my birthday when I turned seventeen [00:23.334] I'll lay a note right next to me that says [00:27.972] "Split the money that I have [00:30.487] Evenly between my mom and my dad" [00:33.987] I'll speak so eloquently [00:37.594] On what to do with each half [00:41.189] I'll tell Rebecca, "Buy a home down the road from Cypress Grove" [00:48.307] And I know, mother, you don't want me to go, but I must go [00:54.955] And I'll tell Mark to buy a car [00:58.572] Please know you're always in my heart [01:02.161] Even when my conscious self departs, you did your job [01:09.367] And to Chris, I hope you're smilin' [01:12.728] 'Cause you kept the boy from dying [01:16.266] For almost a decade, man, **** what my friends say [01:19.740] One twitch of the finger, **** around, and I'm dead weight [01:23.281] Don't believe what the press say [01:25.385] I did this for me and no one else in the best way [01:28.743] To all of my friends, you know I wish you the best, and [01:32.208] When you say my name, say that shit with your chest, and [01:35.891] I think I should be clear, I don't wan'- [01:37.837] [01:39.539] I don't wan' be here with people that [01:42.347] That I didn't know last year at ****in' all [01:46.140] You don't wan' be here when I blow my top off [01:50.356] Girl, I don't wanna be here at all, at all, at all, at all, at all [01:58.798] I'll put the metal to skin, and I'll go off on a whim and say [02:04.050] That I don't wan' be here at ****ing all [02:06.281] [02:12.611] I wonder if tomorrow would've been better [02:16.704] In all honesty, it don't even matter at all [02:21.900] 'Cause it bends, it breaks, it folds [02:25.400] And I'm here right now so just hear me out [02:29.115] Know I let you down, but I can't, no, I can't [02:33.806] I can't change anything, this trajectory [02:38.613] It was meant for me, it was meant to be [02:42.089] Don't let my mom see me before they bury me [02:45.825] 'Cause the man in that coffin, shit, he's barely me [02:49.486] Plenty people gon' say they were there for me [02:52.845] They weren't there for me, they didn't care for me, so [02:55.912] [02:57.197] I don't wan' be here with people that [02:59.871] That I didn't know last year at ****in' all [03:03.595] You don't wan' be here when I blow my top off [03:07.619] Girl, I don't wanna be here at all, at all, at all, at all, at all [03:15.985] I'll put the metal to skin, and I'll go off on a whim and say [03:21.495] That I don't wan' be here at ****ing all