[00:00.000] 作词 : Vincent Jacovelli
[00:01.000] 作曲 : David Breukers
[00:20.697]I swear to God they'll probably never understand me
[00:23.036]Sick of just walking around, pretending I'm happy
[00:25.834]Feel like collapsing from all weight that I carry
[00:28.491]But I just keep it pushing and pop me another Xanny
[00:31.358]Know it's sad but I remember as a kid it was rough
[00:33.897]Always thought we had it all, what I was missing was love
[00:36.800]And always drowning in some waters that were thicker than blood
[00:39.663]Still they wonder how the **** I got addicted to drugs, damn
[00:43.325]But they don't get that I'm avoiding feeling pain
[00:45.874]Only time I feel alive is when there's poison in my veins
[00:48.587]Momma telling me to look at what I'm doing to myself
[00:51.413]But I just wanna be ****ing happy like everybody else
[00:55.137]They looking down on me like I'm the ****ing villain
[00:57.614]I don't wanna talk about it, I know they don't wanna listen
[01:00.430]I was only tryna make up for the feeling I was missing
[01:03.094]If I'm only feeling pain, tell me, what's the point of living
[01:06.153]Every day I'm waking up and tryna deal with the stress
[01:08.874]And I've been acting like I'm happy when my life is a mess
[01:11.680]And all I know is that I got this ****ing pain in my chest
[01:14.631]And I would love to get clean but I'm too ****ing depressed, damn
[01:18.320]Momma's panicking and losing her faith
[01:20.539]Came to tell me 'bout a rehab in a beautiful place
[01:23.431]She said, "Just checking up if you was awake"
[01:26.264]She broke down when she seen her son blue in the face and thought
[01:30.658]No one ever told me it would be this hard
[01:33.286]Never really thought that it would take my life, no
[01:36.133]I just want the pain to ****ing go away, eh, eh, eh-eh
[01:41.656]Once upon a time we were the happiest couple
[01:43.697]Knew we always had each other, never had any trouble
[01:46.620]Always had each other's backs if we happened to struggle
[01:49.586]I left some people in the past and they were mad that I loved you
[01:52.715]Said it's only puppy love, I knew that wasn't the case
[01:55.380]I remember getting nervous when I brought you on dates
[01:58.352]Conversations 'bout the future and copping our own place
[02:01.298]Talking 'bout the day you'd be sharing my last name
[02:04.530]I think I'd loved since the time that we met
[02:07.054]You had my heart and to be honest you was taking my breath
[02:09.965]All my homies said that I became a little obsessed
[02:12.837]Never thought that you would get up and leave me ****ing depressed, damn
[02:16.507]How could you leave me girl, I thought you were the one
[02:18.892]Treated you like a queen, never lied to you once
[02:21.780]Now I feel like I'm drowning and there's water filling me lungs
[02:24.600]I don't wanna be alone, I'm afraid of who I've become
[02:27.635]You're gone and I ****ing hate it, I feel like I'm suffocating
[02:30.468]You ripped my ****ing heart out and never tried to replace it
[02:33.464]Now when I think about you all I feel is disgust
[02:36.153]You were all I ever wanted, thanks for ****ing it up
[02:39.101]Everybody that's around me know that something is wrong
[02:41.975]They always try to tell me love is the strongest drug of 'em all
[02:44.849]You know what, huh, I'ma go and see for myself
[02:47.768]Let me pop a couple Xannys, I'ma see if it helps
[02:50.697]Oh my God, I think I finally feel alive again
[02:54.342]Oh my God, I think I'm finally 'bout to smile again
[02:57.240]And I just started sleeping better at night
[02:59.538]I think I finally found the feeling of what heaven is like
[03:03.138]They're getting rid of all my stress when I'm torn
[03:05.286]And I could tell that they're relieving all my pressure for sure
[03:08.089]Soon my dealer told me that he couldn't get me anymore
[03:11.117]Now I'm feeling way sicker than I ever did before
[03:14.707]Shit, I can't even take a brief intermission
[03:16.858]Without me throwing up and feeling like a piece of me's missing
[03:19.824]There was a time I needed love, now I need a perscription
[03:22.671]I'm done with living like this, I'd rather lethal injection
[03:25.586]'Cause all I think about is pills when I open my eyes
[03:28.520]And every day I'm waking up and feeling broken inside
[03:31.342]When all I really wanted was to feel happy for once
[03:34.249]But now I'm losing myself and losing my family's trust, damn
[03:37.972]I really think these drugs have taken my soul
[03:40.103]Probably pop 'em till they put me in the grave and I'm cold
[03:42.985]But I can't point any fingers, I know the blame is my own
[03:45.818]I got addicted to a ***** and that's the fate that I chose
[03:49.720]No one ever told me it would be this hard
[03:52.924]Never really thought that it would take my life, no
[03:55.731]I just want the pain to ****ing go away, eh, eh, eh-eh
[04:01.284]No one ever told me it would be this hard
[04:04.467]Never really thought that it would take my life, no
[04:07.453]I just want the pain to ****ing go away, eh, eh, eh-eh