[00:00.00]Go ahead and call me a coward
[00:16.23]And say that I'm not strong, because I'm not like you
[00:19.42]Go ahead and call me crazy
[00:20.86]Cause I live in a maze, tell me how about you?
[00:23.68]I think I live in my head
[00:25.16]Sometimes I think that I'm dead, I hide behind my youth
[00:27.81]Know I been losing my mind
[00:29.39]And I'm a little behind, step inside my shoes
[00:32.50]Cause I've never been happy with myself
[00:34.02]And I don't need no one feeling bad for me
[00:35.99]Trying to offer me pity and throw jabs at me
[00:38.25]Wanna give me advice and then laugh at me
[00:40.28]Behind closed doors, just close the door
[00:42.32]Let me be by myself, just me and myself
[00:45.63]I'm tired of living, I cry
[00:46.77]I hear it's easy to die, I wanna see for myself
[00:50.06]And I know that sounds crazy to everyone else
[00:51.66]But I'm depressed as ****, stressed as ****
[00:54.06]Ain't no medicine that could cure what's the test as drugs
[00:56.16]I mean, I need extra love
[00:58.36]And that ain't even enough, said that ain't even enough
[01:00.53]And where the **** is God? (God, God)
[01:02.56]Damn, maybe I ain't believing enough
[01:04.76]But today we gonna see if He's real
[01:06.46]And if He is, I guess I'm prolly going to hell
[01:08.56]Look, I ain't wanna die like this
[01:11.37]I ain't picture my life like this
[01:12.81]They don't know what it's like like this
[01:15.01]Pretending I'm happy so I can smile like this, and laugh like you
[01:17.73]Sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you
[01:20.08]Could I finally fit in and maybe relax like "woo!"
[01:22.46]Or would you feel lost without me?
[01:24.47]Cause honestly, I think the world is better off without me
[01:26.59]And my mind's spinning, this is the line finish
[01:28.47]Truth is I don't care how they feel about my feelings
[01:30.35]I made up my mind, I'm going out like Robin Williams
[01:32.80]I guess I'm not the Ordinary People of John Legend
[01:34.93]And I've been suicidal since the day I was nine, ****
[01:37.56]Okay, the day I was nine
[01:39.09]I've been tired of being bullied, couldn't stay out the fire
[01:41.50]Grandma told me I should take it one day at a time
[01:43.70]And dammit, look at me now, ****
[01:46.08]****, pen runnin' out, ****, fu—, ugh
[01:54.52]Look, just know it's a new day
[01:56.51]But if you reading this, then it's probably too late, blaow!
[01:59.76]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
[02:03.96]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[02:08.02]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
[02:12.38]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[02:16.81]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
[02:21.17]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[02:25.37]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
[02:29.82]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[02:52.53]I hope you got what you wanted
[02:53.33]I hope you finally happy, it's too late for you
[02:56.65]Been going out of my mind
[02:57.82]You don't know how many times that I done prayed for you
[03:01.40]I hope you hear me, goddammit
[03:02.26]Cause I got so much **** that I wanna say to you
[03:05.45]I used to shine, now I'm all in the dark
[03:07.36]I remember I used to tell you to follow your heart
[03:09.36]But goddammit, look at you now, it's all of your fault
[03:11.40]How could you? Maybe it's my fault
[03:13.59]I shoulda paid more attention to what you been doin'
[03:15.77]Maybe I should have been more of an influence
[03:17.90]I can't believe that you're dead, I fu-
[03:19.87]I read your letter and all I could do is have mixed feelings about it
[03:22.36]But I'll forever be attached to you, damn
[03:25.26]Part of me feels bad for you
[03:26.75]A part of me feels like you weak and I'm mad at you
[03:28.86]And I don't mean to be insensitive
[03:30.20]But I don't understand how we couldn't prevent this ****
[03:32.50]You took the easy way out, goddammit, you did
[03:34.69]I mean, look what you did, I'm so ******* upset
[03:36.89]How could you be so selfish?
[03:39.19]*****, how could you be so selfish?
[03:41.68]Now you're gone, you done left me so helpless
[03:43.71]I wonder what God thinks, I hope you in God's place
[03:46.10]Behaving yourself
[03:47.99]Yo, what the **** you gotta say for yourself? (say for yourself)
[03:51.06]Look, I really feel lost without you
[03:52.87]I hate the fact you think the world is better off without you
[03:55.09]And my mind's spinning, this is the line finish
[03:57.02]Truth is, I don't care how you feel about my feelings
[03:59.01]And I'd be lying to you if I told you I'm fine, listen
[04:01.39]I know that you can hear me, all I need is like five minutes
[04:03.33]I just wanna reach inside the casket and pull you out
[04:05.52]I'm sorry this is something that we both couldn't figure out
[04:07.75]I wish I could hear you now, is your soul missing?
[04:10.16]I wonder if you could do it again, would you do it different?
[04:12.27]Tell me what death is like
[04:14.32]Was it meant for you, brodie? Did the heaven support it?
[04:16.71]Are you ******* happy now? Did you get what you wanted?
[04:18.69]Isn't this what you wanted? I feel the temperature falling
[04:20.88]And you've been suicidal back then you were nine?
[04:23.98]Yeah, even back then, you was nine
[04:25.75]We was living on the edge, couldn't stay out the fire
[04:27.81]Grandma told us we should take it one day at a time
[04:29.90]And damn it, look at you now, ****
[04:32.81]But it's a new day
[04:33.79]And if you can't hear me, it's probably too late, ****!
[04:36.81]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
[04:40.60]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[04:45.42]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
[04:49.35]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[04:53.88]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
[04:58.09]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[05:02.26]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
[05:06.76]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[05:10.99]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
[05:15.56]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[05:19.89]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
[05:24.16]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[05:28.72]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
[05:32.70]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
[05:37.10]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
[05:41.42]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me