[00:00.36]Man, I had a dream that my father told me
[00:04.99]"Let's play a game, look me in my eyes
[00:09.65]And just make sure you don't blink
[00:11.91]You can ask me anything you want
[00:13.81]But remember, don't blink"
[00:17.23]I said, "****"
[00:19.04]I got all courage in the world to start asking ****
[00:21.61]That I never had the courage to ask before
[00:24.29]Like, "What's wrong with me?"
[00:29.48]Like, "Okay, I'm born an addict,
[00:32.55]Do you think that you doing drugs
[00:35.41]Had more than an adverse effect on me?"
[00:39.10]"Do you think if you didn't do drugs did
[00:41.44]Maybe I somehow would have came out better?
[00:45.20]Would I had done better?
[00:47.52]I got one
[00:50.59]I was always seeking your approval as a—as a child
[00:54.92]You made me feel like I could never do **** right
[00:58.68]I always wanted to know, like, through everything
[01:01.18]That I've been through in the game, do I make you proud?
[01:05.47]Like, are you proud of me? Finally?"
[01:11.70]And then I was about to ask him about
[01:13.26]The abuse with my mom and, like, I ******' blinked
[01:17.57]As soon as I blinked (I wanna know if it's okay if)
[01:21.08]I'm looking at my son in, like,
[01:22.26]In the face (Kinda ask some questions)
[01:25.86]The objective of the paper is to go in depths about
[01:30.93]The figure in our lives that we find inspiring
[01:37.41]The one we look up to
[01:40.28]I wanted to do mines about you
[01:43.14]I remember the title I had for it and
[01:45.29]I was—I was thinking of calling it, The Book of Ryan
[01:50.69]I was kinda sitting and trying to get in the first paragraph
[01:54.87]And I started to realize how difficult it is to write
[02:03.10]How can I write the paper of my father
[02:06.53]When I don't know who he is?
[02:10.24]So I guess the first question is, "Who are you?"