[00:00.000] 作词 : Nate Feuerstein/Tommee Profitt
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Nate Feuerstein/Tommee Profitt
[00:18.45]Yeah, I gotta say like a month ago
[00:22.00]I was talking to fans
[00:23.15]And one of 'em pulled me aside and said
[00:25.00]"We never met, but I swear that you know who I am
[00:27.50]I've been through a lot
[00:28.75]I don't know how to express it to people
[00:30.85]Don't think that I can, but I got that Mansion CD on rotation
[00:34.10]That's real for me Nate, you do not understand"
[00:36.35]It's crazy for me
[00:37.51]Kids hit me up, say they slittin' they wrists on the daily
[00:40.10]This music is more than you think
[00:41.80]Don't book me for just entertainment, it's entertaining
[00:44.51]Hearin' these parents, they telling their kids my music is violent— you gotta be kidding me
[00:49.00]I guess that your definition of violence and mine is something that we look at differently
[00:53.43]How do you picture me, huh?
[00:54.85]You want me to smile, you want me to laugh?
[00:57.60]You want me to walk on the stage with a smile on my face
[01:00.15]When I'm mad and put on a mask, for real though
[01:03.40]I mean, what you expect from me?
[01:04.90]I'm tryna do this respectfully
[01:06.50]They say that "life is a race"
[01:07.99]I knew my problems'll prolly' catch up eventually
[01:10.88]I do my best to be calm
[01:12.50]How you gon' write me and tell me you'd slaughter my family?
[01:15.20]That's just a glimpse to the stuff that get's sent to me
[01:17.35]These are the parts of my life they don’t ever see, woo!
[01:20.68]I am aware it's aggressive
[01:22.14]I am not here for acceptance
[01:23.88]I don't know what you expect here
[01:25.40]But, what you expect when you walk in a therapy session
[01:28.35]Huh?
[01:29.95]Therapy, therapy session
[01:38.55]Therapy, therapy session
[01:43.55]
[01:47.10]This girl at the show looked me in the face
[01:48.80]And told me her life's full of drama
[01:51.35]Said her dad is abusive
[01:52.65]Apparently he likes to beat on her mama
[01:55.55]I got so angry inside
[01:57.10]I wanted to tell her to give me his number
[01:59.75]But what you gon' do with it right?
[02:01.25]You gon' hit him up, then he'll start hittin' her harder?
[02:03.45]That's real
[02:04.53]These kids, they come to my shows
[02:06.35]With tears in they eyes
[02:07.48]Imagine someone looking at you, and sayin' your music's the reason that they are alive
[02:11.91]Sometimes, I don't know how to handle it
[02:13.54]This type of life isn't glamorous
[02:15.10]This ain't an act for the cameras
[02:16.78]You see me walk on these stages, but have no idea what I'm dealing with after it, nah!
[02:20.70]I put it all in the open
[02:22.25]This is the way that I cope with all my emotion
[02:24.91]I'm taking pictures with thousands of people
[02:26.98]But honestly, I feel like nobody knows me!
[02:29.41]I'm trying to deal with depression
[02:30.98]I'm trying to deal with the pressure
[02:32.58]How you gon' tell me my music does not have a message?
[02:35.20]When I'm looking out at this crowd full of people I know I affected, ah!
[02:39.20]I got some things in my life
[02:41.72]I know I should let 'em go
[02:44.35]Let me jot it down
[02:45.60]Let me take a mental note
[02:47.28]I put it all in this microphone
[02:50.10]—Think about that for a minute
[02:51.69]What is the point of this song? I'm just venting
[02:53.68]But what'd you expect from a therapy session?
[02:55.99]Huh?
[02:57.10]Therapy, therapy session
[03:05.83]Therapy, therapy session
[03:10.66]
[03:14.18]What you think about me
[03:16.35]—That doesn't worry me
[03:17.45]I know I handle some things immaturely
[03:19.60]I know that I need to grow in maturity
[03:21.75]I ain't gon' walk on these stages, in front of these people
[03:24.30]And act like I live my life perfectly
[03:26.05]That doesn't work for me
[03:27.30]Christian is not the definition of what perfect means
[03:31.55]I ain't the type to be quiet
[03:33.30]I ain't gon' sit here in silence
[03:34.69]If I wouldn't say what I say to your face
[03:36.65]Then I promise you, I wouldn't say it in private
[03:39.10]I am not lyin'
[03:40.25]People go off on my page and I'm tryin' to quit the replying
[03:43.28]But this is ridiculous
[03:44.99]I'm passionate man, I really mean what I'm writing
[03:47.75]You want me to keep it a hundred?
[03:49.56]Okay, I'll keep it a hundred
[03:51.25]I see a whole lot of talkin' on socials
[03:53.20]But honestly, I don't see nothing in public
[03:55.55]I kinda love it, yeah
[03:57.70]"Why don't you write us some happy raps?
[03:59.83]That would be awesome"
[04:01.00]"All of your music is moody and dark, Nate"
[04:04.25]—Don't get me started
[04:07.00]You wanna know what it's like if you met me in person?
[04:09.54]Listen to my verses
[04:10.65]This music is not just for people who sit in the pews and pray at the churches, nah
[04:15.10]I won't reject it
[04:16.20]I don't expect everyone to respect it
[04:18.45]I don't expect you to get my perspective
[04:20.30]But, what'd you expect from a therapy session?
[04:22.85]Huh?
[04:23.91]
[04:27.75]I mean, I think sometimes people—they confuse what I'm doing
[04:35.88]I write about life, I write about things that I'm actually dealing with
[04:40.55]Something, that I'm actually experiencing
[04:42.98]This is real for me
[04:44.60]Like, this is something that personally helps me as well
[04:47.95]I'm not confused about who gave me the gift
[04:50.00]God gave me the gift and he gave me the ability to, to do this
[04:53.20]And he also gave me this as an outlet
[04:55.55]And that's what music is for me
[04:57.25]When I feel something, whether it's anger
[04:59.90]Um, it's a passion about something, or frustration
[05:02.75]Like this is where I go
[05:03.95]This is, this is—that's the whole "NFrealmusic" thing man
[05:07.75]This is real for me, I need this
[05:10.00]This is a therapy for me